i was mistaken

I made a mistake this time around and I was wrong. I let me heart tell my mind lies because the rest of my life hurt so bad and instead I only ended with more pain. I almost lost something something I didn't want taken. I'm paying for it now as I paid for it once before.

I forgot the one rule I said applied. it is what is it and nothing more.

I just needed you to care, but you never will, not for me.


i was wrong, my heart can become more bitter and the more bitter the heart, the more it hopes to be saved, but the more it believes it never will be.

This is what it’s like to walk half blind
Listening to sugar coated lies
Gray haze following you through
Heart creating lies from mind’s truths

Every heart break leads
To heart hardening
Anger numbing pain
Until it fades away to bitterness

When you imagine nothing good will ever come again
Coz life’s dealt you a shit hand
And you found that for all you gave
Nothing was received

i dream when i sleep, i never want to dream again.

the man laughed at me.