today would have been your 31st birthday and i miss you so much right now. a friend once told me that she felt that i was putting too much faith in love (at least in romantic love) and that i see it too much as something that will fix my life. but she's never gone through losing her mother or the murder of her best friend. most people haven't... so they can't possibly understand... that my hope in romantic love, that my faith in it is what keeps me going. the reminder that i can have something wonderful again, after going through so much pain.
i wished it for you and i know you wished it for me.