some years are harder than others

dear mom,


it's been eight years since you've been gone and this year it's harder to bear than others.  i've just finished an amazing two years of my life, so much has changed and a new chapter in my life feels like it's starting.  i need your advice on love and life.  but you're not here anymore, i can't ask you, i can't hear your voice and it hurts right now more than it's hurt in awhile.


i wanted you to be there when i find love, true love.


i wanted you to be there when i get married.


i wanted you to be there when i have kids.


i wanted you to be there.


i know you loved me, i know you'd want me to be happy, but some years it's just harder than others...


this year i would give anything just to have one more moment with you.


love always,
your daughter.