As it gets closer to the end of the school year, I always start to reflect, especially when my room is half empty and my walls once again bare like before. so these are my thoughts tonight:
..you know how people say that when you're in love you just know it.. you can't ask someone else what love is, you just feel it. I had be in love once before and had felt the pain from being hurt by it too, and had for awhile felt like I would never fall in love again (deep down inside you know you will, but it still hurts like you're never going to again for awhile).. then the most amazing thing happened, I fell in love this year, but not in the way one would normally think. I fell in love with a group of people. It was that indescribable feeling of joy at seeing a person and just being around them.. where they love you back so much that you start to see yourself through their eyes and you realize what a beautiful and wonderful person you are.. only I didn't realize it until now.. how much I love these people, needless to say it's not the same as the romantic/companionship love you'd feel with a significant other, but it runs parallel to it.. how often is it that you have a whole group of people who relate to you in some way, who feel things like you do and understand you when you don't even say a word.. it's amazing to be so loved like that and to love people like that.. sometimes I wish I could just touch someone to show them how I feel, if I could have this rush and of emotion shoot out of my fingertips to someone, so that they would know and how I feel about them, life would be great.. because no words could ever do justice to the describe love..now all I need to work on is realizing how much I love someone, without having to wait until good bye to realize it.. but it's not really good bye, it's more like a see you later.